The morning was fairly uneventful. I invited people over to watch the Steelers face the Ravens on Monday Night Football and settled down to watch some TV. I was even good about eating lunch at home for once. But I was down to almost nothing as far as groceries went. I figured I couldn't put it off any longer. So as I grabbed the remote to turn off the TV, I accidentally changed the channel to
News 8 Austin in the middle of a weather report. First thing I saw was a huge red and yellow line of clouds just northwest of Austin. I hadn't even known there was a chance of rain. Turned out, it was a fairly severe line of thunderstorms ... heading our way.
Oh joy. Last thing I wanted to do was sit in my house as a bad storm pounded away, flinching at every nearby crackling boom of thunder, wondering which one would strike my roof. I looked at the radar, looked at the ominous gathering of clouds outside, and decided to be a chickenshit. So I fled to HEB ahead of the approaching storm, partly to do much-needed groceries, and partially to avoid sitting nervously in my house.
I pulled into the parking lot as the rain started to come down. After I ran inside, it really started to pour. The water was pounding the roof of the store so hard it sounded like we were under Niagara Falls. I heard a few booms of thunder, but nothing that sounded severe. This seemed to be a rain-heavy storm but not too bad electrically.
As the rain started to taper off, I headed back home. Everything seemed fine. Didn't even appear to have lost power for a second. But I still felt like a coward. Phoebe and Meeka greeted me at the door immediately, which is unusual, because they usually take a minute or so to stretch from their sleeping positions and head to the front door when I come home. And both Andrew and Tom, who work within a mile and a half of my house, commented over IM on how bad the storm had sounded. Not just the rain, but the lightning. Turns out it might've been similar to the storm that had caused me so much annoyance
4 months ago. So while I was glad I hadn't been sitting around alone in my house trying to anticipate each lightning strike, I still felt like a coward and a total chickenshit. I felt bad for leaving the girls too, as they were a little on edge for a while after the storms passed. It was probably best I wasn't at home for the storm, but still.
Then I realized that my internet access was now mysteriously slow. I could get through on IM, but web surfing or email was slow to non-existent. It didn't seem like my cable modem had been affected, but who knows. So I went through troubleshooting every component. Nothing. The speed issue was even more prominent now. Yet all the correct lights were blinking the way they should. There was no apparent reason for the problems. Time Warner's tech support found no problem with the lines in my area either. So with each failed attempt to solve the problem, my frustrations grew. And grew. And grew.
Fortunately, I live a mile away from the Time Warner Cable office, so I made a quick run there to exchange the cable modem. I hoped it was as simple as that. Maybe a power surge had gotten to the modem through the cable line. Though why it would only partially damage it? But I had to try.
But no. Like a casino that's sold all its gambling equipment, no dice. The problem wasn't any better. It even seemed to be getting worse. So my frustrations boiled over. I yelled myself hoarse. I was, to say the least, pissed. It wasn't just the internet access, of course. After months of enjoying my layoff times, I was starting to get a little annoyed with promising leads falling through here and there. And also, I was also getting tired of losing my tennis matches on the weekends, being dead last by a long shot in our Tom-organized NFL picks league and also being the cellar-dweller in our NFL fantasy football league. (Yes, I was 2nd place in our college picks league, but I do that by using a strict formula that works well, so I don't see that as a reflection of my ability to pick winners. It's stupid, I know).
I was tired of losing, period. Even though these were all stupid small things. But it added up, and losing my internet access for no apparent reason after cowardly fleeing a bad storm was the last straw.
But then dusk fell and I had to put on a happy face to hand out candy. I retrieved my jack-o-lantern from the freezer, where it had been for a week to stave off its decay (I'd been to a pumpkin-carving party the weekend before), lit up its candle and set it outside. I got more trick-or-treaters than I had last year, but they were all in big groups. About 15 kids in 3-4 groups. A mere 20 minutes' worth. Even before 7:30, the trick-or-treaters were done.
Then it was time for Monday Night Football. And except for their first drive, the Steelers didn't look very good. Welcome back, frustration! So by the time Anita and Bob arrived to watch teh game, I was Grumpy McIrritable. I think I softened a bit as the evening wore on, but not much. They left in the 4th quarter, and Tim arrived shortly after in Napoleon Dynomite gear. With Tim I got to watch Pittsburgh lose the lead for the first time to a team they should have slaughtered, then claw back to win in the final 2 minutes. So sure, the Steelers won, but it was ugly and not at all satisfying.
Before going to bed, I at least got my internet access working again by going directly through the cable modem instead of using the wireless router. And after doing some quick calculations, I got a pleasant surprise: The fantasy football game in which I'd been losing big to Craig had turned in my favor. Seems the Steelers defense and the two Steelers starters I had on my team earned me enough points to turn a 25-point deficit into a rare victory for me.
Is it sad that this made me feel better? Yes. Very, very sad. But it did. And so I went to bed, hoping to let my frustrations drift off into the night...